Other people who have run Grandma’s Marathon told me that the worst part about the race is that you can basically see where the race ends from 10 miles out.
The finish line is right next to Duluth, Minnesota’s classic lift bridge, a hulking steel behemoth that is easy to spot approaching town from the northeast on Lake Superior. Many runners see the bridge and it’s like the horse smelling the barn, so I’m told. They pick up the pace; it’s way too soon; and they pay for it over the last miles.
Other runners see the enormous bridge as a tiny blip in the distance and realize that they still have a loooong waaaaaay to go. This brutal fact seeps like poison into their brains, as sure as lactic acid will seep into their struggling muscles.
There would be a reprieve today however. The lakeshore was swallowed up in a soggy blanket of 45-degree fog. I wouldn’t see the bridge until I was downtown, chugging through the last example.
The lift bridge may sound like a silly thing to worry about, but the runners’ stories made sense to me. I know that the mind can go on weird loops when it’s under severe stress in a repetitive activity like marathon running. For me, this often takes the form of a question: “what if I dropped out now?” which I ask myself every quarter-mile or so. Doubt amplifies this.
What doubts would I have?
For starters, I knew there would be virtually no chance that I would set a personal record on the course. I simply hadn’t done the 80+-mile weeks and the speed work that had set me up for my 2:38:19 finish in Boston back in April. My longest run had been 18 miles, and I had felt pretty dead-legged at the end. I had deliberately avoided the marathon book and logging my miles because I figured that if I compared my last effort with this one, I would have lost all motivation. I hoped that I would finish in the 2:40s, that I wouldn’t bonk mid-race, or realize that I should have ditched running for the last couple of months and done something better with my time.
I think back to the oft-quoted line from 5K wunderkind/tragic figure Steve Prefontaine: “To give anything less than your best is to sacrifice the gift” — no doubt, inspiring words to the five-year old sewing them onto a T-shirt in a Bangladeshi sweatshop. Cynicism aside, I’m sure Pre was sincere about what he said. The sonofabitch showed it when he hit the track.
Pre’s immortal quote didn’t sit well with my actual Grandma’s Marathon training plan, which was to do what I wanted after Boston and then work out semi-diligently in the weeks leading up to the race without trampling over other life-commitments.
For starters, I had my adventures in Utah to take care of. After that, I drove north to Minnesota where I started work as a kayak guide on Lake Superior’s north shore. The job certainly doesn’t make it impossible to run, but sometimes, after a day of hauling boats and giving instructions, it can be nice to save some time for cooking a good dinner or catching up with reading – not lacing up for another 12-mile run with a 6-mile pick-up.
When I did run, I felt a stiffness and sluggishness no doubt left over from Boston training. The soles of my feet ached when I went downhill. Some days still felt strong, but there were fewer of these days than there had been earlier in the year when I was hungry for a Boston PR.
If I wasn’t going to put the same time and effort in that I had reserved for earlier races, maybe I would have been better served spending more time kayaking, hiking or writing. And yet, I still believe that running doesn’t have to be the center of one’s life in order for it to have value. I was interested to see how I incorporated a less demanding running regimen into my daily schedule.
I found myself taking time to enjoy some trails and to stop once or twice to admire views of waterfalls around Lake Superior, or the lake itself. I wondered if I should let Boston be my fastest marathon and move on to other life goals.
The start line was the usual horde of people in bright synthetic clothes, cloaked in garbage bags for warmth. The chill gray sky and drifting fog reminded me of so many autumn cross-country meets, so did the mud. Enormous speakers blatted out “Eye of The Tiger” and the “Rocky” theme, while runners spread plastic bags out on the sodden grass so there would be somewhere dry to sit.
At least half of the racers were lined up at the portable toilets at a given time. I went through one line, but relegated myself to the woods for subsequent trips. Yeah, it wasn’t what the race planners wanted. Maybe they should have rented some more fuckin’ toilets.
The race started with an airhorn. I took a shuffling start amidst the other runners. Since the race start was self-seeding, people were supposed to follow the honor system and line themselves up at the start according to what they thought they would run. Me, I put myself just in front of the 2:50 mark. Not everyone had been so honest, I thought as I weaved through the shufflers.
My first mile was 6:40. Conservative. I was pretty sure I could hold a faster pace on the way to the finish and started turning my feet over faster.
Over the next miles, I started drifting up through the ranks. I felt the first edge of fatigue come on around eight miles in. No doubt, that would hurt plenty by the time I got to 20 miles.
At least I didn’t have any hills to worry about. Grandma’s is mostly flat, with the only the gentlest of undulations as the course follows the shoreline. Race veterans (the same ones who warned about the lift-bridge) told me to look out for Lemon Drop Hill at around Mile 20. I drove over it the day before, and barely noticed the rise.
A slight tailwind nudged me along the course.
I waited for the death twinge in my muscles or a massive bonk to come down on my shoulders and crash my good times, but felt pretty with it. A few groups of runners passed me, but by the time I was 15 miles in, I was gaining more places than I was losing. I chugged a couple cups of Powerade so I’d be able to dodge the wall.
By 19 miles, I had to make a stop to void my holdings at a porta john.
I dropped a couple dozen places while I was busy, but got most of them back in the next miles.
Somewhere along the sidelines I heard a burst of radio and heard the words “course record,” but couldn’t put them into context.
I took on the much-feared Lemon Drop Hill without much pain and agony. The course wound into downtown Duluth, packed with screaming spectators.
I got a lot of “You can do it man!” and “Stick with it!” cheers, a sure sign that I looked like hell.
Well that was fine. I had more in the tank. I turned my legs over faster, letting myself scowl and grunt. At a certain point, I was sure my stride would buckle if I picked it up any more. That was probably the point where some real marathon training would have made the difference.
A sudden stitch poked into my side. I scowled as I fought to draw wind through the abdominal pain.
The course veered off Main Street around Mile 25 right next to a heavy metal band rocking into a brutal “Eye of The Tiger” riff. I gave them the metal sign and the beastliest scowl I could muster.
The last mile took me up an overpass, along the Lake Superior piers and down a final stretch past a phalanx of spectators. I threw down the best sprint I had left and finished in 2:45:10 for 130th place out of 6211 racers.
It was my sixth marathon, and third best time.
The winner? Dominic Ondoro of Kenya.
He not only won the race, but also set a new course record, beating out Dick Beardsly’s 1981 record by 31 seconds with a 2:09:06 finish.
I got in front of the top master’s female finisher, Valentyna Poltavska, 42, from NYC, on the final stretch. Right behind her, the top grandmaster, 64-year-old Tim Freeman of Port Angeles Washington brought it in for a time of 2:45:57. I only managed to catch up to him in the last mile. 18-year-old Jacob Young took the top of the minors’ division in 2:46:05.
I’d name the people who finished in front of me but memory escapes me now.
I got the ribbon around my neck, the space blanket and anesthetizing pint of beer.
Yeah, no P.R. but I still look back on the last miles with a kind of relish. I don’t often push myself that hard.
I’m not going to do another marathon any time soon. I’m going to spend some time messing around with other stuff. But I know damn well that after a couple of months of not training for anything, I’m going to get the itch again, and find myself right back on the start line somewhere.